what? it’s just that thing in life.

For the first time in my life, I just felt that sense of failure. That sense of failure that really hits you hard in the head. I’ve failed a million times, but it just didn’t get into me. I picked myself up, and went ahead with things. But I couldn’t believe what I had to go through at work today.

I dont’t know? Somehow, it really has come to a point of time in my life, that I want to achieve something. I want to succeed, I want to be able to be good in almost everything. Well, say, be that perfectionist woman who has everything going smoothly? I know it’s impossible to have EVERYTHING just going the way you want it. But, why does that ‘bumpy road thing’ always happen in my case?

“But hey, why stay on when you are unhappy?”

Maybe, I’m just really unhappy.

On a side note, I had a great steamboat dinner the other day on Sunday with Jojo, Mellie, Leong, Rachel, Jinwen and Veron! Not forgetting the two mains, Ianny and David. Say, we call this the final gathering before they turn into the servicemen for the Nation? Mount Faber, Fabulous environment. Peaceful, cosy and cooling, what’s even better is that big sumptuous meal we had! Oh, we had Ben & Jerry’s after that. Woohoo!

Come to think of it, it’s a Friday tomorrow! Friday means I get to smell and stroke that smelly fat boy. Psst, I know it’s only been like, three days. But you know what, I say I do miss him like crazy.

like, finally?

Hello, like finally.

Before I go on pretty long with this entry, I want to say a big THANK YOU, to my parents, who have been really open and understanding towards my relationship with Ianny. Seriously, things wouldn’t go so well not for these nice support and understanding from them! I love you, mom and dad.

 

Ian go to become a Life Safer and here I am at home uploading my pictures and updating my life! Been spending real lots of time with Ian as much as possible and turns out pretty good! I dont really like getting into details about things, but here’s just a brief one.

Remember that Holga surprise? Ya, birthday surprise from Ianny. He surprised me again with a lovely Holga Photo frame with all the Holga Pictures of me that he has taken. I think I almost teared.

And so, today marks the day of Ianny’s start to be a National Serviceman as a Life saver. It feels so weird to see him get shave-headed, so weird to see him walk into that bunk in that camp and probably, march? Plus, the last few days of him being just a few inches away from me makes it just so hard to not be able to control my emotions this morning. But hey! It’s only 4 days what, he be coming back to me on Friday! Crazy, hoh?

Aw, that makes it sound better.

 

Anyway, side track. Work kinda are sucks now. I am counting down to days that I’ll just leave. It has reached my boiling point, or to a point whereby, I feel so cheated. My big life-long interesting plans are on the way and I really really really hope I get it fulfilled. Well, life’s all about fulfilling all your dreams, all the way, right?

Just so to let you guys know too. Because I hate to not do anything at all, and I hate to not be busy.

1) My up and coming plan is to sign up for Western Boxing training over at Kadir’s Boxing School. Check it out. Only $35. *Looking for interested boxers to join in too. Let me know.

2) Next up, when Anan’s Hip Hop 1 class in O School opens, I be learning the grooves too man. *Interested groovers, also let me know.

I guess, thats about it. Nyeh. Its starting to feel a little empty right now. Oh well! Botak-going-to-no-more-Chunky. Aiyo. Its a good thing I kissed your belly a thousand and five times before you leave. Am so going to miss this fat boy.

Remember, dont be a hero!

Happy Birthday Fae.

Okay, toodles. Be sure to check out my Flickr account / Facebook Holga Albums!