wasn’t in time.

Haven’t been blogging so much eh?

Experiencing the sudden loss of my grandpa had my days pass by so fast. Things were just happening always ’suddenly’, and till now, things are just settling in, and we’re still trying to accept a fact.

I remember receiving news about him getting admitted all of a sudden because of a fall in the toilet, I remember when all was fine for him to go to another day care medical centre to stay, he got to be admitted back to the hospital again suddenly because of another stroke.

Things…. happened so fast. We thought we were ready. I thought I was ready.

I could’ve left earlier, but I just wasn’t in time… to be by his side as he passed on to a better place.

It’s been a week, and it just kinda feels weird to know that there’ll never be more creative and innovative ideas popping around in your house like, using a Nescafe coffee powder glass container and adding a straw hole to make it your water bottle.

No more big treats from you every other special occasion. No more many things from you.

We’ll miss you. Don’t worry, no more pain for you anymore, Ah gong.

say cheese!

Then I is so happy and so very proud of you, baby.

Tomorrow is Friday! Whee!

heehee!

Oh look who is back!

I very lazy to update. But you see, nice picture eh. Wah, we so skinny ah! You know how much I love Photoshop.

//EDIT:

Hello Dimi! I miss you too, and yeah! We haven’t really been talking, would really love to have you here in Singapore again! Come fast!

Anyhow, I got a job! A great job, that is. A job that’ll create a great future for me. A job that is hopefully my true headstart to a great career and a job that’ll allow me to learn and be in for many great opportunities. I am excited to start this Thursday, but it also sucks to know that there is yet another problem that I have to face and fix it. Goddamnit.

I just wish YOU could really be a supportive and understanding role in this whole situation. There are so many other chances for THAT something, but there is only just ONE in a million and thousand chance for me to get thus far. Why now? Why does everything have to fall on me just one go like that. Oh my goodness.

But anyway! I hope I get my ass into a good school in MDIS, and start stablizing my life. Hi, I am 20 already, I dont want to live being a bummer at this age.

Oh, also, welcome me to the Gossip Girl club. I’m starting to get addicted to it, a good thing to keep my mind off everything and kill loads of night time. Woohoo! Love you, Ianny.

Bye!

huh?!

Perhaps , December is just a month to be jolly! Tra-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la.

It’s great to know that I am at least 85% eligible to enter MDIS for a part time Bachelor’s Degree in Mass Communications. And it’s also great and funny to know that I might just be an editorial assistant or a journalist or a producer or even, a director. (WOW?)

Well, in anyways, I’m so finally going to get my IC next week, after walking around with a police report for at least one-half month. It drives me nuts to open my wallet everytime and having to struggle with the sheets of money, you know.

Just the other day, I met up with the girls, and yoohoo?! Zhang Xi is finally back from Down-Under! We brought her to our new photoshoot site over at Far East Plaza, and I just miss how the four of us would ALWAYS do that! Hello, yes, I mean 4 OF US! Yay! Pictures galore soonish over the weekends.

Anyhoo! I need to really write very well from now on. WHY? Because if I freaking want a job being an Editorial Assistant, then I bloody god damn better write well and read more books and newspaper. Wah lau!

Goodbye, and I hope all of you have a great day and a great book to keep yourself busy and improving!

still here and will be here.

Hello. And Bye.

Life’s good, like a bed of roses for me. (Wah, I so contradicting ah, one moment say not. Now yes full of roses.) Well people around I love still love me, and I am enjoying the time of my life. It rocks to be happy.

Just… Jobless.

Mission of the week : Get a proper job.

Byebye! I miss my boyfriend already, and. I’m bloody sure he misses me too. Yeeeepee! Oh, Oh. Hey You Sememek Johnson too. Heehee!

mini tubs of love.

Hello. I went to Shop ‘n’ Save and I carried home big bags of stuff for myself to keep me surviving the whole week. The biggest deal of all is, Ben & Jerry’s Mini tubs of lovelies!

Tub #1.

Yeepee, I be seeing my girls on Thursday, and then it’ll be yet another weekend til I see THE LOVE .

Well, being out of job ain’t that a bad thing. I mean set aside the money and all. But hey look, it’s given me loads of time not only for myself, instead giving me a lot of options and chances to look for what the hell i want in life. I was am lost. I’d love to see what my girls and the love say first. Oh, of course what my parents would think. Tonnes of schools and jobs out there for me to get into my future and probably reach my “Goals”. I dont want to be seen as a useless person to my children.

Anyhoos, MDIS to LaSalle to Kaplan. Mass Comms, Media Studies. Is that REALLY what I want, and see myself doing that in future. Well, I could say, I am pretty much of a 80% sure, Hell yea thats what I want.

*Secret Mission’s on the way! Vrrrrrrrroooooooooooommmm.

i love you.

Happy 9th Monthiversary, Loves.

Of course being with you I’m super happy!

legal driver

I freaking passed my Basic Theory Test together with some Bangalas. Woohoo, what’s exciting is, I’m soon going to be hitting the roads!

Anyways, just a quick one:

1. I lost my wallet due to some pennyless bangalas in the bus and I’m trying to get my life back on track without all the cards. Well, I’ve got them replaced.

2. Ianny’s doing great, he’s so going to be skinnier than me! Damn, I worship this work out slider my Dad just bought. I lost 120kcals at least today!

3. Kadir’s Boxing School, HERE I COME.

4. I am jobless for the time being, but I’m feeling so much happier. I’d better get my pay as soon as possible man. Don’t you run away, yo.

5. This just happened a few hours ago, I’m so going to start a big big Spree, bringing in US brands into your lives! Together with my cousin. I hope things goes well!!

My holga pictures are very well updated in my facebook! So, haha, be my friend then you’ll see nice stuffs lor. Bye bye.

what? it’s just that thing in life.

For the first time in my life, I just felt that sense of failure. That sense of failure that really hits you hard in the head. I’ve failed a million times, but it just didn’t get into me. I picked myself up, and went ahead with things. But I couldn’t believe what I had to go through at work today.

I dont’t know? Somehow, it really has come to a point of time in my life, that I want to achieve something. I want to succeed, I want to be able to be good in almost everything. Well, say, be that perfectionist woman who has everything going smoothly? I know it’s impossible to have EVERYTHING just going the way you want it. But, why does that ‘bumpy road thing’ always happen in my case?

“But hey, why stay on when you are unhappy?”

Maybe, I’m just really unhappy.

On a side note, I had a great steamboat dinner the other day on Sunday with Jojo, Mellie, Leong, Rachel, Jinwen and Veron! Not forgetting the two mains, Ianny and David. Say, we call this the final gathering before they turn into the servicemen for the Nation? Mount Faber, Fabulous environment. Peaceful, cosy and cooling, what’s even better is that big sumptuous meal we had! Oh, we had Ben & Jerry’s after that. Woohoo!

Come to think of it, it’s a Friday tomorrow! Friday means I get to smell and stroke that smelly fat boy. Psst, I know it’s only been like, three days. But you know what, I say I do miss him like crazy.

like, finally?

Hello, like finally.

Before I go on pretty long with this entry, I want to say a big THANK YOU, to my parents, who have been really open and understanding towards my relationship with Ianny. Seriously, things wouldn’t go so well not for these nice support and understanding from them! I love you, mom and dad.

 

Ian go to become a Life Safer and here I am at home uploading my pictures and updating my life! Been spending real lots of time with Ian as much as possible and turns out pretty good! I dont really like getting into details about things, but here’s just a brief one.

Remember that Holga surprise? Ya, birthday surprise from Ianny. He surprised me again with a lovely Holga Photo frame with all the Holga Pictures of me that he has taken. I think I almost teared.

And so, today marks the day of Ianny’s start to be a National Serviceman as a Life saver. It feels so weird to see him get shave-headed, so weird to see him walk into that bunk in that camp and probably, march? Plus, the last few days of him being just a few inches away from me makes it just so hard to not be able to control my emotions this morning. But hey! It’s only 4 days what, he be coming back to me on Friday! Crazy, hoh?

Aw, that makes it sound better.

 

Anyway, side track. Work kinda are sucks now. I am counting down to days that I’ll just leave. It has reached my boiling point, or to a point whereby, I feel so cheated. My big life-long interesting plans are on the way and I really really really hope I get it fulfilled. Well, life’s all about fulfilling all your dreams, all the way, right?

Just so to let you guys know too. Because I hate to not do anything at all, and I hate to not be busy.

1) My up and coming plan is to sign up for Western Boxing training over at Kadir’s Boxing School. Check it out. Only $35. *Looking for interested boxers to join in too. Let me know.

2) Next up, when Anan’s Hip Hop 1 class in O School opens, I be learning the grooves too man. *Interested groovers, also let me know.

I guess, thats about it. Nyeh. Its starting to feel a little empty right now. Oh well! Botak-going-to-no-more-Chunky. Aiyo. Its a good thing I kissed your belly a thousand and five times before you leave. Am so going to miss this fat boy.

Remember, dont be a hero!

Happy Birthday Fae.

Okay, toodles. Be sure to check out my Flickr account / Facebook Holga Albums!